Hi! Good memory. My birthday is June 13, so a few days away still when the moon is in Taurus. I will be 35! The way I see Pluto in the 10th house is a hard childhood, usually the result of an absent father (emotionally or physically), or a father who was too strict (maybe even abusive). That then causes the 10th house Pluto person (you) to take on the role of the father instead for the entire family too soon, at a young age, when you shouldn’t have to, robbing you of a carefree childhood where you got to explore yourself and your feelings and do silly things kids like to do. If it doesn’t cause the 10th house Pluto person (you) to take on the role of the father, then it causes them to feel as though they have to hide or sacrifice their inner feelings and deep desires in order to be a responsible figure. I have heard you mention a mother and sister in your comments, but not a father or brother. Perhaps they have put you in a position where you feel you are responsible for them and have to put on a strong front or appear a certain way to protect them? This creates a person (you) that when they become an adult, they have a hard time being childlike or carefree, honoring their emotions, and doing the things they desire — because they never were able to do it when younger… and now all of a sudden they are older and they feel it is too late, the time has passed. They feel overburdened with work and responsibility, living a life they don’t emotionally connect with and feel unable to escape. As a result, the 10th house Pluto person needs to consciously choose to honor and understand their emotions to an extreme degree and indulge some of those, in order to bring this extreme sense of responsibility from childhood into balance. In your case, the opposite point of Pluto for you is in the 4th house, in Taurus. But with Aries (Mars ruled) being on the cusp of the 4th, I would consider them together. Mars and Venus (Taurus — not Venus Libra), as your emotional nature that you have not cultivated that needs to be cultivated more. What is this that needs to be cultivated — The Taurus we have been talking about already. But Aries/Mars — It is impulsive, aggressive, angry, primal, sometimes sexual. That is what needs to be reclaimed here. Perhaps you feel a lot of guilt and shame around being impulsive, doing what you want, asserting yourself, and feeling sexual desires? Perhaps you feel a lot of pent up anger about your childhood? (You are a black moon lillith in Aries near your 4th house cusp, right?) I might argue that this is what needs to be felt more of finally and healed with Pluto back in Capricorn. That might sound the opposite of “nurturing,” which is a word I have used in this video. But I think I can make a case that being impulsive for a change, aggressive, angry, sexual, etc. might actually be very nourishing to an Aries 4th house — or to forget astrology for a minute, to a person with a masculine core. Perhaps “nurturing yourself” and “feeling your emotions” for a 4th house Aries is not engaging in a kumbaya circle crying/meditating in the corner, but feeling completely the rage/anger from the past and indulging a few impulses you might have ? Re-claiming the dark masculine, so to speak? Your Capricorn/Libra/Virgo will be a good little boy, do what is best for the situation…. but deep down the mature man you’ve become has longings. Longings which probably aren’t… politically correct, to say that gently. You tell me you do a lot and burn out fast. Maybe that is your Sag mars (in the 12th house no less), maybe it is your black moon lillith in Aries. But what it tells me is that maybe there is a deeper desire here that is going unfulfilled, and acting out in weird ways. As for your career if we are considering mars (in addition to Taurus venus), this can bring a more active, adventurous, or daring career — physical, in the body. Also, something more independent, all yours only, that gives you lots of freedom. With your mars in Sag (the ruler of your 4th), maybe a writer, teacher, or speaker. In the 12th house, about spiritual matters. I mention it because martial arts does seem to hit a lot of those points. Something in the body, with spiritual ties, you can teach. But doesn’t have to be. As for the Scorpio, I am not scared of the deep emotion. I am a Pluto in Scorpio too, in the 4th house, with a Cancer rising and Mars in Pisces… a grand water trine. I FEEL things, possibly even more deeply than you LOL 😉 although this is not a competition !!! What scares me with the Scorpio, is the tendency to get too intertwined with relationships, not set boundaries, and then stew on the emotion when something goes wrong… instead of feeling the emotion, setting a boundary with the person that has been crossed, being confident in themselves and their decision, and just… moving on! You may have learned how to handle this by now, but my scorpio sn/pluto/saturn sister and her husband…. are very interesting with relationships/emotion. It makes me personally just feel a bit out of control, and unable to rely on them. Although, I think there are lessons for me to learn there. I tend to avoid my own Scorpio tendencies at most costs, but I feel I do need to learn how to work with the energy there better so I can round myself out. I think working with Scorpio energy better might actually fix some of my current problems LOL Also, I emailed you recently. Doesn’t seem like you got it (or at least read to the end of it) with this comment. If that is one of those things you are paralyzed about, I understand. But I just wanted to let you know! I am feeling all out of sorts. I have had very little appetite since Jupiter moved into Taurus and Mars into Leo. Can’t eat. Also, can’t sleep. Wake up every night around 3-4 a.m. and then can’t go back to sleep. It is making my body sick, sore throat, upset stomach. I feel this is an energetic thing, but I don’t know how to fix it. Might just have to ride it out… Anyways, I hope these thoughts I shared weren’t intrusive. Take whatever resonates.